* Hello , welcome back to my blog! So I'll upload when I have a topic to talk about or a problem and later say how I fixed the problem or why I still deal with something! So today we're going to be talking about
| SCHOOL , MY SOCIAL STATUS , MY MENTALITY AT SCHOOL , ETC! |
Monday , 10-22-18
~So today what the start of the second nine weeks!The first nine weeks wasn't all that for me , I did procrastinate without a doubt,I just had to adjust , trust me there is still a-lot of adjusting for me to do but other than that i'm good , well at-least feeling threatened wise!
I do need to be way more positive and less negative!I compare to others to much , I know i'm enough but not everyone is satisfied with what they have or had , or what they were born with!
It's really just society's view point that effects the way that people see me!
It's hard to be a strong confident black girl , everyone already doesn't like your or you're technically not their first choice.
Its hard , making sure I don't disgust people with my discoloration or my natural hair!
Having to deal with people , trying to be the stereotype of you and you're kind.
Scared n dance class because I have discoloration on my knees , elbows and armpits!
Yeah they aren't that bad , but to them it's not "normal."
So yeah I feel emotional when I go places not the best dressed or whatever , that is the only way they'll respect me !
Most people wouldn't even be friends with me if it weren't for my talent and humor.
It's crazy but yeah that's how I feel!
I mean honestly I don't care about what everyone says,but it'll effect a person after a while.
Boys aren't easy , as much as most teenage girls want boyfriends , I'm not even allowed to date!Its not really the fact that ya know I want one , Its just that no one every takes the time out the day , that I'm so special to them!
Honestly it could be just hormones making me feel this type of way but man.....
I really don't need a boyfriend though , Like I said it's just seeing everyone at school with theirs boo's then watching romances , etc!
Guys nowadays ain't it , so I'll just wait , I have more stuff to worry about , I need to love myself first!
If someone else stumbles upon this I hope you love yourself too!
| SCHOOL , MY SOCIAL STATUS , MY MENTALITY AT SCHOOL , ETC! |
Monday , 10-22-18
~So today what the start of the second nine weeks!The first nine weeks wasn't all that for me , I did procrastinate without a doubt,I just had to adjust , trust me there is still a-lot of adjusting for me to do but other than that i'm good , well at-least feeling threatened wise!
I do need to be way more positive and less negative!I compare to others to much , I know i'm enough but not everyone is satisfied with what they have or had , or what they were born with!
It's really just society's view point that effects the way that people see me!
It's hard to be a strong confident black girl , everyone already doesn't like your or you're technically not their first choice.
Its hard , making sure I don't disgust people with my discoloration or my natural hair!
Having to deal with people , trying to be the stereotype of you and you're kind.
Scared n dance class because I have discoloration on my knees , elbows and armpits!
Yeah they aren't that bad , but to them it's not "normal."
So yeah I feel emotional when I go places not the best dressed or whatever , that is the only way they'll respect me !
Most people wouldn't even be friends with me if it weren't for my talent and humor.
It's crazy but yeah that's how I feel!
I mean honestly I don't care about what everyone says,but it'll effect a person after a while.
Boys aren't easy , as much as most teenage girls want boyfriends , I'm not even allowed to date!Its not really the fact that ya know I want one , Its just that no one every takes the time out the day , that I'm so special to them!
Honestly it could be just hormones making me feel this type of way but man.....
I really don't need a boyfriend though , Like I said it's just seeing everyone at school with theirs boo's then watching romances , etc!
Guys nowadays ain't it , so I'll just wait , I have more stuff to worry about , I need to love myself first!
If someone else stumbles upon this I hope you love yourself too!
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